Mad Church Disease

I am reading the book Mad Church Disease with my team. If you work for a church, volunteer for a church, or go to a church I would highly recommend it.

Last semester, LifeKIDS Stillwater was growing by leaps and bounds. We were having fun in and out of the office and it seemed that nothing could stop us. We let our guard down.

BAD IDEA

Satan was just waiting for a chance to jump into and jumble things up. All of a sudden we were all struggling with things personally and professionally. And it didn't just end with the staff. Our office volunteers were being attacked too. We had gotten so caught up in how fun everything was and how great everything was going that we forgot to cover our backs in prayer and stay broken and yearning for our Father.

If you are working to further the Kingdom of God, Satan is waiting to take you out. It's not a matter of if, but when. In my case, he clouded my mind with tasks and business so that my ministry kicked the Jesus out of my life. I no longer was seeking God FIRST to be my leader and show me what HE wanted. I was trying to do it all on my own. Let's face it, without the Holy Spirit, I'm just not that good.

You can't go too long without Jesus in the Captain's chair without noticing something is really wrong. I started to get worn down and just plain exhausted. Thank goodness, God doesn't let me go too long before He slaps me in face and asks me, "What are you doing?"

So now the question is, "What do I do now?" I feel like have to start over from square one and put Jesus as the foundation of my life and my ministry and start building for there. It may take a bit to get back to land of milk and honey. But I honestly never want to settle there. I never want to be at a place where I feel everything is good and I don't have a need to pursue my #1 anymore. I always want to feel a little uneasy. I never want to feel like I have it all figured out. I want to remain as broken as I feel right now so that I will always remember that with my Savior I am nothing. And only through His work in me that I may have the wonderful opportunity and privilege to impact His Kingdom.